first one here

i've resolved to have one blog where i actually make...blogger-ish posts, stuff that is thoughtful and meaningful, more than just simple updates and rants...well i have a xanga so if you want updates on my life, you'll find it there, as for here, i've decided that this space will be where i post my meaningful things.

so here we go

lately i've really been thinking about life and it's rewards, and how often life doesn't go the way we want. but isn't it true that, often what we want isn't waht we really should have? like, we still have much to learn, no matter how old we are, we still have much to learn, more to learn? in a way we're still like kids. rememeber when you were a kid, all you wanted were candies and sweets, but as you matrued and grew up, you learned that waht you wanted wasn't the best thing for you to have? i think that's why life doesn't go the way we want, because life knows better than to jsut give it to us. sure everything has its exceptions, and i'm sure sometimes when we want something it turns out or it really is something that we truly honestly need. but we all know that not everything we want is what we really should have. tell me you haven't wanted something then regretted it, it happens all the time. examples? why are there so many divorces? surely when they married they honestly thought they would be together forever, honestly wanted this to last, yet they regret it later, learn later perhaps they were wrong. how about abortions? you wanted that one night with the other party, yet obviously that wasn't the best course of action.

bad examples perhaps? maybe they are, maybe they're not, but i hope you get my point.

so maybe the next time things don't work out, perhaps there's a reason hmmm?