betrayal

pain
anguish
despair
there's a lot of things betrayal can make you feel, rarely are there any good feelings
but why do people betray one another
why is it that one day everything is fine, yet the next day suddenly BAM, you've been backstabbed, seemingly out of the blue
well, it's often (dare i say never?) out of the blue, and if you look, there are surely signs that this was happening. it's a slow process, over time you might notice, looking back, that gradually things had begun to change. perhaps someone isn't reacting, answering quite the way you expect to. someone you knew so well suddenly can seem like a different person. that is surely one of teh first signs of betrayal. eventually it just culminates in one final act, one moment that leaves you hurt, confused, wondering why.

that's a very good question. why? why did this happen? well one of the first things i must tell you is that it is entirely possible it's not your fault. did you do anything to deserve it? if this is one of your friends, then i'm sure you didn't cause it. then what happened? perhaps your friend just changed. change happens, people change it's a matter of life. perhaps your friend changed and realized the way they were now, being so much different, their view of you changed. perhaps it might have actually been your fault. your friend dropping subtle hints asking you to change something, but you not taking heed. there are so many different ways and reasons why such acts happen. but to be sure, it's not something that is pleasant to go through. really no one that i know of can honestly say they look forward to being betrayed, noone who enjoys it. betrayal hurts, and the sad part is, in our world today it's a matter of, betray first before you are betrayed. i've seen it happen so much, someone suspects that something's coming, so they pre-emptive strike. it's easy when you're right. you can just say, oh see, at least i didnt' get the short end of the stick. but what if they're wrong? just shrug it off and say oops? say something along the lines of, it was going to happen anyway better now rather than later?
sorry to say, that low and asinine of you. call me old fashioned, i'll agree i am whole heartedly. i have old fashioned values, but who decided taht old fashioned was wrong, since when has treating everyone with respect wrong? being nice to people regardless. before that was called being humanly and a good person, now it's called being a pushover, someone who's weak and allows people to walk all over him.
yes i have had my share of betrayal, i am not immune or naive to this term, or the reprucussions of going through such an ordeal. i know how it feels, and i cannot say it doesn't hurt. it does. someone you treasure, acts in a way you don't expect, it's like a shock, you are just left in disbelief. it's not easy to bounce back from one of these. nay i'll dare say few manage to recover within a short amount of time. it just doesn't work that way.
what makes it so dangerous is that often the damage is worse than one expects. physics abuse, that heals, but the mental anguish, the psychological shock or trauma, no matter how strong one is, mental damage is not quickly mended, nor mitigated, especially by someone you trust, someone you thought you were safe in. suddenly, what's safe anymore? your very safety is suddenly dangerous it can throw one mad. it's easy for someone else to say, oh it's ok it'll pass. deep down, you know it will, but chances are, you're not thinking like that, chances are you're thinking of the right now, where can i be safe from this i can't take another betrayal.

this is a hot topic, i'll end my post here mainly because i can't think of where to stop, but i'll be writing more on this, i jsut need a bit more time to dwell, but don't think this is the end of the topic simply because i'm ending this post, betrayal is not that simple, and neither will my talk on it, count on that