hmm, lately i've been told alot that i'm a really good person. that's good i guess ain't it? i mean better than being a horrible person. but i've also heard myself being called...too nice, too good. and that's gotten me thinking about what and why.
is there really such a thing as too much. i mean i honestly try to be a really good person, someone that when you think of em, you think of how good they are. but apparently, people are suspicious of people who are too good, like they want a person to be good, but not TOO good. too good makes it seem they have an alterior motive. i find that mildly ironic, and a little jewel of knowledge. everything in moderation, or so the saying goes. so i've learned another thing. however, the logic still fails to convince me. at what point does it suddenly become creepy how good of a person i am? why has society corrupted it with the sickos that make it onto "to catch a predator"-esque shows. it's people like that who screw people like me over. ooohhh it's all nice, yeah i like you because yer a good person, but i'll be suspicious of you because you might be a sexual predator preying on little kids. that's the view people have of me. a bit unfair but, that's how the human mind works.
but that's an extreme example, perhaps not quite a good one as it involves me, and thus i obviously would hold resent and feel strongly towards one side...BAD ME...must stay objective
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
love, or something like it
love, what is it?
how many times have i heard that word be passed around, some of them were serious, some just threw it like it was another word. but why does love have to do so many things to us? love really can do just about anything to a person, it can bring them to the highest of highs, and the lowest of lows. i've seen people who have been their happiest while in a relationship, but then see those very same people have their love crumble before their very eyes and never completely recover. so waht is this very emotion, word, verb, there's so many ways it's used it can get confusing.
first i'll talk about love the verb. as a verb it's said so easily nowadays. "good bye, i love you", as a way of parting, or, "aww i love you", as a way of saying thanks, or as a way of showing how much someone means to you as a friend. it no longer is used solely in the romantic sense. people say it's because old fashioned romance is dead, and it's true, we are now in the age of hookups and flings. i guess i'm a mix, i admit i use to word love to describe my relationship with my friends, i describe it as a love not in a romantic sense, but in a sense that i love them as a person, for who they are, not for being a potential partner.
which brings me to my next paragraph, on love the feeling, also works closely with love as a word, the two go hand in hand. love the emotion can take many forms as well. it can be a bond between friends, or as it's most commonly thought of to represent, the affection between two people. i believe tho that it has become less impactful in its usage, it is used so often that it's become softer in meaning due to it. perhaps there are a few reasons why this is so, but i believe that it can only go to a point at which it is overused, which i think it has. now i'm old fashioned when it comes to romance, but how can that be a bad thing?
also something that has come to my attention is the view on love. nowadays people are too quick to say that they're in love, and then suddenly, they're not, sorry, love doesn't work that way. love isn't supposed to be that easy, if it was, i honestly think there's no point. if you do not work hard at it, you are less likely to appreciate it. i think that's one thing that makes good relationships soo good, why after so long couples can still be faithful, they remember what they had to go through to get where they are.
i onno, that's just some thoughts i've been having...holy crap this post actually took a week to write xD...i'm soo lazy
how many times have i heard that word be passed around, some of them were serious, some just threw it like it was another word. but why does love have to do so many things to us? love really can do just about anything to a person, it can bring them to the highest of highs, and the lowest of lows. i've seen people who have been their happiest while in a relationship, but then see those very same people have their love crumble before their very eyes and never completely recover. so waht is this very emotion, word, verb, there's so many ways it's used it can get confusing.
first i'll talk about love the verb. as a verb it's said so easily nowadays. "good bye, i love you", as a way of parting, or, "aww i love you", as a way of saying thanks, or as a way of showing how much someone means to you as a friend. it no longer is used solely in the romantic sense. people say it's because old fashioned romance is dead, and it's true, we are now in the age of hookups and flings. i guess i'm a mix, i admit i use to word love to describe my relationship with my friends, i describe it as a love not in a romantic sense, but in a sense that i love them as a person, for who they are, not for being a potential partner.
which brings me to my next paragraph, on love the feeling, also works closely with love as a word, the two go hand in hand. love the emotion can take many forms as well. it can be a bond between friends, or as it's most commonly thought of to represent, the affection between two people. i believe tho that it has become less impactful in its usage, it is used so often that it's become softer in meaning due to it. perhaps there are a few reasons why this is so, but i believe that it can only go to a point at which it is overused, which i think it has. now i'm old fashioned when it comes to romance, but how can that be a bad thing?
also something that has come to my attention is the view on love. nowadays people are too quick to say that they're in love, and then suddenly, they're not, sorry, love doesn't work that way. love isn't supposed to be that easy, if it was, i honestly think there's no point. if you do not work hard at it, you are less likely to appreciate it. i think that's one thing that makes good relationships soo good, why after so long couples can still be faithful, they remember what they had to go through to get where they are.
i onno, that's just some thoughts i've been having...holy crap this post actually took a week to write xD...i'm soo lazy
Thursday, March 13, 2008
change
things change
people change
lots of things change
it's part of life
so i'll talk about change. there's a few changes that occur in life. sometimes we wonder why things had to change. well, answer's pretty simple really, because that's life. there aren't that many constants in life, and there's a saying the only thing that's sure is death. i guess another things that you can be sure about, is the certainty that people will change. mildly ironic no? the one thing you can know will bethe same about a person, is that fact that they will change. that reminds me of many things i've been told over the years.
-people don't change, they only become more of who they really are
-lots of thigns change,bu except for the one thing that makes the person unique, that part will never change
-change is inevitable, and nothing to be feared
over my life, i've seen many changes in the world around me, and most importantly, in myself. looking back can be painful sometimes, but at the same time, it's enjoyable as well. to see how i've progressed, to remember myself as that shy little kid. the one noone noticed, with short hair, glasses, braces, and a face full of pimples, yeah i've really come a ways. my hair's obviously longer, my face is much clearer, i wear contacts, and although i still tend to be non-social, i'm definately more outgoing than i used to. it's been an interesting journey for me, and i certainly have no major regrets about how things have turned out. if you went back in time and told my old self that i would be sure about where i was going, what i wanted to do, that i would be like this, i might run away from you, doubt it but still somewhere in my heart think slightly that it might be possible.
another thought also. change is not something sudden, it's a long drawn out process. the problem mainly i think is, people forget or don't know that fact. change doesn't happen overnight usually, it's something that is so gradual you don't notice it just by looking day to day, it's something you have to see over long periods of time. too many people demand change, but do not wait long enough to see it. oh it's definately happening, the person's changing, just not as fast as you expect, and perhaps not in the way you want. but you won't know that, unless you wait it out. it's an act of patience. and so i'll end with this, a relic from awhile ago that i read, very nice reading...enjoy
he paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more,
but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and
smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees
but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more
problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too
little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our
possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and
hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to
life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer
space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air,
but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold
more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less
and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of
two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one
night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer,
to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the
stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time
when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going
to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to
you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your
side.
Remember to give a warm hug to the one next to you because that is the only
treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent. Remember,
to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all
mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep
inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday
that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak
and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
people change
lots of things change
it's part of life
so i'll talk about change. there's a few changes that occur in life. sometimes we wonder why things had to change. well, answer's pretty simple really, because that's life. there aren't that many constants in life, and there's a saying the only thing that's sure is death. i guess another things that you can be sure about, is the certainty that people will change. mildly ironic no? the one thing you can know will bethe same about a person, is that fact that they will change. that reminds me of many things i've been told over the years.
-people don't change, they only become more of who they really are
-lots of thigns change,bu except for the one thing that makes the person unique, that part will never change
-change is inevitable, and nothing to be feared
over my life, i've seen many changes in the world around me, and most importantly, in myself. looking back can be painful sometimes, but at the same time, it's enjoyable as well. to see how i've progressed, to remember myself as that shy little kid. the one noone noticed, with short hair, glasses, braces, and a face full of pimples, yeah i've really come a ways. my hair's obviously longer, my face is much clearer, i wear contacts, and although i still tend to be non-social, i'm definately more outgoing than i used to. it's been an interesting journey for me, and i certainly have no major regrets about how things have turned out. if you went back in time and told my old self that i would be sure about where i was going, what i wanted to do, that i would be like this, i might run away from you, doubt it but still somewhere in my heart think slightly that it might be possible.
another thought also. change is not something sudden, it's a long drawn out process. the problem mainly i think is, people forget or don't know that fact. change doesn't happen overnight usually, it's something that is so gradual you don't notice it just by looking day to day, it's something you have to see over long periods of time. too many people demand change, but do not wait long enough to see it. oh it's definately happening, the person's changing, just not as fast as you expect, and perhaps not in the way you want. but you won't know that, unless you wait it out. it's an act of patience. and so i'll end with this, a relic from awhile ago that i read, very nice reading...enjoy
he paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more,
but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and
smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees
but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more
problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too
little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our
possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and
hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to
life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer
space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air,
but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold
more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less
and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of
two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one
night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer,
to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the
stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time
when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going
to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to
you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your
side.
Remember to give a warm hug to the one next to you because that is the only
treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent. Remember,
to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all
mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep
inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday
that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak
and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
Monday, March 10, 2008
dreams
as i write, my eyes are still somewhat closed, my mind is somewaht delayed. what happened? i just woke up from a dream :P. this one i actually remembered since i just woke up, but dreams...now what are they, seeing as how psychologists and psychoanalysts have tried to answer that question for awhile now.
but waht are they? so many times they're random, but in those cases where they are vivid, waht do they mean? are they a prediction of the future? a vision of waht you want most in life at that moment? what are they?
well i may not have much experience with this, as i don't often remember my dreams, i'm quick to forget them unless i write them down, which is rarely. but here's my take on dreams. dreams, in a way, are similar to my analysis on life. the thing about dreams, is that there's so much going through your mind that the chance of it being something significant isn't that great. however insignificant it may be, each dream is important. dreams, to me, can be an escape, for a few hours, you're not in the "real world", living your life, experiencing stress. dreams are a way to i guess, "experience something different". when you dream, there's so much that can happen. it's like reading a book for me, it takes you to another world, imagination is key, of which i have alot of if any of you know me ^_^. i don't really think of dreams as something important, no more important that those times when we were kids pretending to be superheroes, princesses, or wahtever. those times weren't to predict waht we would do later, they were because we're kids, trying to have fun. dreams are like that. no matter how old we get, i'm sure there's still a small part that wants to still be a kid, to still have fun. and perhaps dreams are an outlet for that small part to do its magic, to remind us that joy that can occurr when we use our imagination :)
that's all for today
but waht are they? so many times they're random, but in those cases where they are vivid, waht do they mean? are they a prediction of the future? a vision of waht you want most in life at that moment? what are they?
well i may not have much experience with this, as i don't often remember my dreams, i'm quick to forget them unless i write them down, which is rarely. but here's my take on dreams. dreams, in a way, are similar to my analysis on life. the thing about dreams, is that there's so much going through your mind that the chance of it being something significant isn't that great. however insignificant it may be, each dream is important. dreams, to me, can be an escape, for a few hours, you're not in the "real world", living your life, experiencing stress. dreams are a way to i guess, "experience something different". when you dream, there's so much that can happen. it's like reading a book for me, it takes you to another world, imagination is key, of which i have alot of if any of you know me ^_^. i don't really think of dreams as something important, no more important that those times when we were kids pretending to be superheroes, princesses, or wahtever. those times weren't to predict waht we would do later, they were because we're kids, trying to have fun. dreams are like that. no matter how old we get, i'm sure there's still a small part that wants to still be a kid, to still have fun. and perhaps dreams are an outlet for that small part to do its magic, to remind us that joy that can occurr when we use our imagination :)
that's all for today
Thursday, March 6, 2008
first one here
i've resolved to have one blog where i actually make...blogger-ish posts, stuff that is thoughtful and meaningful, more than just simple updates and rants...well i have a xanga so if you want updates on my life, you'll find it there, as for here, i've decided that this space will be where i post my meaningful things.
so here we go
lately i've really been thinking about life and it's rewards, and how often life doesn't go the way we want. but isn't it true that, often what we want isn't waht we really should have? like, we still have much to learn, no matter how old we are, we still have much to learn, more to learn? in a way we're still like kids. rememeber when you were a kid, all you wanted were candies and sweets, but as you matrued and grew up, you learned that waht you wanted wasn't the best thing for you to have? i think that's why life doesn't go the way we want, because life knows better than to jsut give it to us. sure everything has its exceptions, and i'm sure sometimes when we want something it turns out or it really is something that we truly honestly need. but we all know that not everything we want is what we really should have. tell me you haven't wanted something then regretted it, it happens all the time. examples? why are there so many divorces? surely when they married they honestly thought they would be together forever, honestly wanted this to last, yet they regret it later, learn later perhaps they were wrong. how about abortions? you wanted that one night with the other party, yet obviously that wasn't the best course of action.
bad examples perhaps? maybe they are, maybe they're not, but i hope you get my point.
so maybe the next time things don't work out, perhaps there's a reason hmmm?
so here we go
lately i've really been thinking about life and it's rewards, and how often life doesn't go the way we want. but isn't it true that, often what we want isn't waht we really should have? like, we still have much to learn, no matter how old we are, we still have much to learn, more to learn? in a way we're still like kids. rememeber when you were a kid, all you wanted were candies and sweets, but as you matrued and grew up, you learned that waht you wanted wasn't the best thing for you to have? i think that's why life doesn't go the way we want, because life knows better than to jsut give it to us. sure everything has its exceptions, and i'm sure sometimes when we want something it turns out or it really is something that we truly honestly need. but we all know that not everything we want is what we really should have. tell me you haven't wanted something then regretted it, it happens all the time. examples? why are there so many divorces? surely when they married they honestly thought they would be together forever, honestly wanted this to last, yet they regret it later, learn later perhaps they were wrong. how about abortions? you wanted that one night with the other party, yet obviously that wasn't the best course of action.
bad examples perhaps? maybe they are, maybe they're not, but i hope you get my point.
so maybe the next time things don't work out, perhaps there's a reason hmmm?
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