been awhile

hmm i realized i hadn't written here in quite awhile, and i've lately been thinking about things so here we go.
i am going to recount on my topic of love from awhile back. So many have come to me asking about love, how can you tell when you're in love, what is this love thing, explain it. well i am by far the last person to ask about love, but i suppose i could share a bit more about my thoughts on it.
seeing as how i've never been in love, i cannot say honestly when you know. there is the stereotypical oft heard cliche that, when you are in love you'll know. i know many who i suppose looking at them you could say they're in love. i've seen my friends find people who they refuse to live without, who they realize means so much to them that life without them is hard to imagine. Such a connection is quite notable i must think, and i cannot deny how happy they are with that person. now given they are not always lovey dovey agreeable,, of course they have conflicts and fights, but when it comes down to it, they are completely satisfied with the other person, and there is a mutal feeling and a sense of trust and contentness with the other side.
love, that is a hard word to explain, especially nowadays when it's made so lightly and used to superficially. Yes i am an old time romantic, i believe in love still, that it still exists. But in a world of hook ups and superficial crushes and affections, love has become essentially non existent. I will not argue with you when you say you don't believe in love, in today's world, it's hard not to, every day we see so many stories about divorces, they happen everywhere, people marry so easily, and split just as quickly, everyone else does it, why shouldn't we? well that feeling is undeniable, and i honestly think that the thought of finding a person that makes you so happy, that really is the one, i think that is worth the trouble, the wait, the pain of finding them. Believe in it or not, that doesn't concern me, you are entitled to your own thoughts. i will believe in that irrational intangible thing that can cause so much, pain, happiness, confusion, a wide range of emotions. i refuse to give up on it, to confrom to a world who has abandoned it, because as long as i go, i shall try to keep the dream alive :), and remain old fashioned hopeless romantic to the end